i just can't let you go.

2011-08-04T21:12:00.000+08:00

K damn,this is really pissing me off! what the heck do you think you are doing? why are you stalking my twitter? worst of all,you follow the people whom i had a conversation with? do you even know him/her?!?! You should know who the hell you are! You already have a girlfriend,why the fuck you still wanna stalk my life. oh,i know you gonna said please dont accuse me or presume. not that i dont want to lock my twitter,i have my reason. the way youre behaving right now,freak me out. youre 20 n still you act like this? shame on you,BITCH! if you really have any self conscious,please do a reflection on yourself and stop stalking my twitter. dont make me lock all my tweets. if you really wanna stalk me,i dont mind as long as you dont make conversation or follow the people who had a convo with me.

ive said my piece.

2011-07-01T02:30:00.001+08:00

Okay,this crazy thoughts just flashed thru my minds. wouldnt it be nice if i had a boify and he come over my house,we would talk all night together with our pop corn and watch korean dramas together. hehehe. wooo! i bet it gonna be fun! i would snuggle on his chest and smell his perfumes.. hahahha! just by typing it,im excited. bleahh~

i need to finish this fanfic im reading. its so so so SO fun! make me laugh till there's tears at the side of my eyes. i got exactly 2 days to finish it before i go overseas with my friends.

okay,overseas-im excited but at the same time,i haven pack my clothes. shout out to my future boify-help me pack will you? im dead tired by doing all the works. like watching dramas,reading fanfic,stalking n etc. its tedious! hahs!

saturday im gonna be doing touch-up on my hair roots. and not forgetting olive treatment. that treatment really leaves my hair smooth. lovin'it.

idk what types of bag should i buy? a crumpler or manhattan portal? smth thats make me looks that im outgoing(obviously im not) and chic? k not a right words. smth that make me look comfy? ah!! self note-bring my cap and my spec and sunglasses.

k bye. i wanna read fanfic.

2011-06-28T00:20:00.000+08:00

the clothes which i went to batam,i still haven washed it yet. And im left with a week more to pack my clothes for my upcoming trip. Woohoo~ lolol.

ahh,im bored to deadth at home. stupid baby*imaginary*busy with his schedules.kekeke.

I was shocked when he touched my hand. I was even shocked when he kissed my cheek.We were kissing and Suddenly,myphone rang,ALAMAK! disturb my dream only lah! tsktsk.

I was reading a fanfiction and suddenly something strikes my mind.Since im already 20 years old,pretty old,im looking for love in a serious way. kay,random much.

no mood wanna post. all i want is to see him,badly.

2011-06-01T22:21:00.000+08:00

Last week,i had been working. Busy,tired and everything lah. someone pls massage for me ! Went town today since there's no school for me. Wanted to bought for myself Sperry top sider shoe or highcut shoe. But hmm,cant make up my mind. Watch Kungfu Panda 2 today. I love it ! Had too many munch today. Gotta diet. kekeke. But overall,i love today ! I bought some stuffs which i need to bring for my short get-a-way with friends. Bought some stuffs and i bought a side ribbon clip. Oh gosh! , im becoming feminine. Noooo~

N guess what! kay,dont wanna tell! hahaha. Merong~! Now,i got smth t look forward t every morning <3

From side view,this's how it looks like...

2011-05-10T21:15:00.000+08:00

Hello. im back to blog. Like finally my internet connection is stabilize. kekeke. so on sunday,i went out with my friend. He wanna buy smth for his so called "girlfriend" . so he bought her Manhanttan sling bag(which i like!,damn him,lucky her) and we watched fast and furious 5. (Y) i really love it. but why ah,so little drift? no kick uh sia. hehehe. I wanna watch "Thor,source code,pirate of th carribean" whoever got free time,beep me. lets go and watch together-gather~ kekeke.

How adorable can he gets? Gahhh!! *slap-slap*

Yours truly,

2011-04-21T00:07:00.000+08:00

Saw th news about KMW. But now,i dont feel like going for the concert already. 10 groups,10 groups leh! so many. all i want is my Big Bang's & 2NE1 or YGFamily concert only. i shall give it a pass i guess? and hmm,im going holiday with my friends on June. its confirmed! woohoo~ okay,th bangkok trip with another friends had to be cancelled. My pocket,burning. hahaha. Im thinking,should i buy a Fred Perry's shoe or Coach's bag instead? grrr. i cant make up my mind. HOW? HOW? & anybodies wanna go out with me on 30april ma? all my friends have date on this date,except me. i wanna go shopping. anyone? PM me. hahaha.

&oh! my hair treatment and hair mask arrived already! excited to the max. Gonna take good care of my hair. Ohyea,should i rebond my hair or body perm? Gahh,its been few years since i last rebond ? teehee^^

2011-04-05T19:37:00.000+08:00

Kyaa! Aliff scratches my face and there's a scar :( ill upload photo to show aite. Ahh,yesterday i went chalet with my friends.I didnt wanna go for th chalet but mum said that im at home always and she asked me t go out to freshen myself up. haha. I Didnt wanna sleep over but since some of my friends are staying, see lah,at home always also is a wrong thing. most of th time i was in th room with th guys.

I really,really was tired and wanna rest but erm, someone kept on teasing me and ended up we make lots of noise. And they just loved to make noises like "uh!",'ahh!" people might misinterpret sia. but nevertheless,i had fun.

While lying down with my friends,as usual,they would asked who's handsome and what's our ideal types. see lah,immature,asked about such things. hehehe. And i was shocked when they said im pretty. Woot,feeling happy and blushing and excited. LOL . i mean im fat and when someone said im pretty,its a compliment right? n guess what,i didnt make up. thanks to Aliff.

I wish i could turn back th time. if only,if only i know whats your feelings toward me,i wouldnt let last night incident to happen. but oh well,since you choose to keep it as a secret,i shall act like nth happened.

I bought Garnier's face product,cost me a bomb. LOL,nolah. around $150. But its worth it. i love th smell of th night cream~ Yes! Big Bang's coming Singapore. when i saw th news,i keep jumping up and down. But somehow,i wished it would just be their concert or YG's family concert not a mixture with other company.

pardon my face,LOL. took it on th spot.

And Yes,i dye my hair mocha red <3 Seriously,i cant dye my hair by myself. th color wont turn out to be what i expected. I always have to go shop and have it done .

2011-02-09T23:02:00.001+08:00

I'd been reading fanfic for the past few days. its so sad. The stories really showed me what's true love. I really hope someone would do th same to me too. hahaha. i know its just a story. th guy waited for th girl for 3 freaking years without going out with girls let alone dating.eventhough they are not tgt,without fails he gave her her birthday presents and their anniversary mths(eventhought they had broken up) really admire his character in th stories. My eyes are all swell now due to th crying. sobsob. phone been beeping but i just cant be bothered to replied. kay lets move on.

I've been admiring my ribbon hp strap. loving it so much. worth th money <3 hehe. ohyea,i mentioned few days ago that im craving for Oreo cheesecake's right? went starbuck with my friend and i didnt ordered it. i jus felt like puking when i saw how he ate th cake? LOL. its like im craving it but when i sees it,i wanna puke. what's wrong?

oh,should i be happy or what? i guess i made another enemies in my house area? someone cut off my Billabong's slipper strip. FYL! it was a present from my friend and thats th only memories i have with him. N its gone too. tsk. oh well,gotta buy a new one before friday. cause i really,REALLY cant wait for sat night! hahaha. oh,what should i wear for th afternoon gathering though? mayb a tee and jeans with some accessories? or dress? should i make up? its been months since i last make up,i repeat,MONTHS! been going out with friends showing them my bare face. tsk,so shy.

okay,i need t read my fanfic back. im not asking much,i just wanna find a love like this. chey~ hahaha!

2011-02-07T21:21:00.000+08:00

Tadaa! im using iphone 4 now. & guess what ! ,overheard dad convo with his friend about iphone 5 coming out in June? is it true? if so,i really want it! hahaha. Ohyea,got my Big Bang's tee & hoodie ! im so excited and delighted~ worth my money.heehee. Aunt heard that I wanna buy hoodie and she gave me $50 for it! Woah.*shocked* . Before my birthday,she treated me Angus's steakhouse. <3 Just th 4 of us and she spent nearly $400. See,people gave me things that i wants and not needs but i still appreciate it cause it my wants! get it? LOL.

Oh,told Danial about my iphone 4 screen protector and he's buying it for me at Suntec. Thanks! i need it asap but i just dont have th time t meet him. can you post it t my house instead? LOL! many thanks.

Im craving for Oreo Cheececake, KOI and Ice-cream! can i crave for money? hmmm..LOL!.

ohya! yesterday went to macpherson to meet mum and aunt friend's. N guess what!? her son was only 17 and he dare to asked my number?!?! He thinks im gonna be interested in a small boy? no offense but cmon,im saying th facts. Was moody and i got no one to story to. Even if i have,i bet they would be laughing their ass off. so might as well i just vent it on my blog. tsk. and guess what,my camera dont seem to be working? i tried charging it,switching it on n off but to no avail? whats wrong? hopefully its not spoil. if it is,im dead. I need a camera!

&& where could i possibly keep it? so sad ):

2011-02-01T00:20:00.001+08:00

today i seriously got no mood for class but no choice,got test. sian. slept around 330am n woke up at 6am. was sleeping halfway and my friends suddenly texted me. there's no way i could said i was asleep. so texted with them while im half awake and reading book at th same time to make myself awake. After what had happened yest,i had the thoughts of us going back together. But then,i accidentally view "his" profile and i knew,there's no way we could be tgt again. All this happens are cause of GIRLS,GIRLS & GIRLS. So enough said,i know what i have to do. There's no way "he" can change too. One word,"he" cant live w/o girls FULLSTOP!

im having this urge to have a boyfriend? LOL i really cant tahan with the boring life i had. I already had someone in mind but,shhh..i dont wanna reveal. its more of a crush. he has those definitions that i want in a guy.

Ahh~ gonna get my phone soon. Really,very soon.within this week. yea ! i don wanna b reminded of some arse. Always mentioning how faithful but th truth,heh,only i know. Save ur act ah~

2011-01-30T16:55:00.002+08:00

I wanna start off with - i had a great birthday celebration. to those who haven gave me my present,please do so. LOL! im waiting~

I wanna buy a new phone. suggestion anyone? Either iphone 4 or HTC Desire HD? supposedly,i wanna used my mum contract cause theres still a long way for my line contract to end. And furthermore,momma received $100 voucher,so might as well make used of it. But then, theres a changed of plan. So i guess,i might have to buy my phone w/o contract and that would cost me around 1k odds. so went to POSB bank yesterday to withdraw my money from my saving account *sobsob* only left with 2 digits. LOL! And of course,i dont dare to carried that much money with me. Hand it over to dad and i have to wait till next week before i can buy. Hopefully,i can use mum contract so i wont have t used up my money. I wanna go holiday!,i wanna go jackpot at genting! thats why i saved up my working money. sigh! And i want itouch 4 but hmm,forget it.its a wish-wontcometrue.

There's Coach's sale last week and pheww,lucky i didnt go. If I'd gone,my money can said Bye-Bye to me. ive been wanting to have a coach pouch. alrighty~ time to read my book.

2011-01-16T22:58:00.000+08:00

first of all,i wanna be emo. so dont mind me,readers.

its was 14th few days ago.its used to be a special day but not anymore i guess? you dont even text me like u used to.you dont even post anything about me in "that" place. th reason you create "that" was to post about me but it ended up you post things about ***! HELLO?!?!,you think Natassha dont have "that" account ah? am i invinsible?tsk! couple celebrate all th festive seasons tgt,but we?!?! fuck! im asking for t much. lets forget about it.such a fucking waste of my precious time.nabei.

Been hitting gym few days ago. realised that i didnt exercise eversince im discharged frm hosp.like 12345678 days! OMG. i skipped lunch and dinner again cause i got no time t eat? lol. wanna eatched my k-drama.mum had been complaining to grandma n dad eversince she saw my palm are pale again.what th fuss? normal right?!?!

ahh! went CGHfor dermatologist that day.been having dry skin.Doc said its just a minor skin problem. to him,its minor,to me,its a big things! i cant even make up cx of that! grrr!

&I dont even have th mood t celebrate my birthday. kay,actually i dont even rmb whens my birthday (kay,im lying*cross fingers*)hahaha! cant help it ahh,lotsa my friends kept reminding me of my birthday.teehee. i wish to go to th z00! i wanna see all th show,wanna see my beloved friend,th goat.Guess what!?! my solvis titus watch gone. sobsob):

alrighty,wanna go watch "jungle fish 2" daebak!<3<3

& oh,at some points of time,im lying.

i heard big bang's are coming to singapore!*faint*

2011-01-06T00:29:00.000+08:00

ASK ME ANYTHING,PEEPS!

www.formspring.me/TasshaVIP

2011-01-06T00:27:00.000+08:00

i cant help myself to stop crying.it been sucha long time since i cried. am i childish or crazy that im crying while watching marry me marry? whatever happens in th story seems so real to me. i can feel th pain in her while she saw her bf kissed a girl infront of her. it happened t me too. i mean not once or twice. hahs!. and she sucha fool to believe him again.this type of guys,better go n die. easier said than done.saw th guy whom i love kissed his gf,made me gave up on him,but i didnt. likewise,easier said than done.its take courage to give up someone,and im doing it now.its hard but i know i can . cheyy..hahas. see uh! while typing,im still sobbing. grrrr.. i need some ice cream now.

oh! that time i went out alone(cant believe it),i did some thinking while slacking at starbuck alone while sipping down my java chips and enjoying a slice of non-fat mango cake hahaha.i realised that its not pathetic to go out alone,instead,i learnt lotsa new things.it seems mature and independent. and i went arcade and saw my ice cream man.I mus said he got th looks.but looks gets u nowhere right?ohwell,i cant think straight.all i think of now is my baby<3

2011-01-05T23:15:00.000+08:00

Let me start off by saying my holiday SUCK! i didnt went out with my friends at all,except darla :P
BORING! how am i able to lead my life like this? ABSURD!
watched Marry Me,Marry and how come those 2 guys love to kissed her scar on her face? HELLOZ!,i got a scar on my finger too and how come no ones kisses it? LMAO! th guys show so much concern for her,i also want! make me have th urge to have a bf onlyy. fuck. hahs. I also want to do alot of special moments together with my bf. i also want to travel around n do things with him too.i also want to cook for him and i also want him t carry my bag when we do our shopping. HAHAHA! why am i thinking of all this? hahs!

2010-12-24T00:41:00.000+08:00

im freaking tired frm working -.-

Marry Me,Mary ( Y ) while working,my mind is full of th drama. i simply cant wait to watch it th moment i reach home. theres this part in ep8 where th guy kissed th girl forehead because he cause those scar on her forehead..ohmy! my heartbeat skip a beat. LOL. so romantic. kekeke. ahhh~ yest went out with my friend and he gave me Tiffany & Co heart bracelet. so sweet of him ah? thanks. N gosh,im keen to learn knitting but how to do it? seems so difficult. Been thinking,should i buy an ipad? but its not a needs.its just a wants.kay nvm,i got so many things on my mind t buy.oh yea! my birthday coming in 1234567 days time. hahaha.

ive been having th same dream again n again. shit.kinda freaked me out at times.

alrighty,gotta go slp,tmr werking. or wait? shld i buy monopoly th world edition? okay,so many things on my mind. if only my life is like those korean drama which is scripted,i wouldnt edit out my life n make myself a rich girl. hahaha. kay this is a real goodnight. night!

2010-12-12T22:02:00.000+08:00

Yaww.. th moment i reached home,i kissed mum non stop. hahaha! i missed her badly cause im not at home for 2 days. went orchard last night cause ive to buy some christmas present! n fuck,im officially broke. th money which i saved to booked Mandarin hotel for my birthday,had to be cancel. super sad aite! oh,daddy gave me sucha shocked when he called me last week and ask me what i want for my birthday. i said nothing cause i know i wont get anything cause im big enough to support myself but but but,he promised to buy for me iphone 5! wth?!?! hahaha! kay,dont hold on to his promises but who cares! th thoughts of him actually rmb my birthday,gets me so high. HAHAHA

& i saw my cousin wish list. OMG! their parent really bough for her ipad. so happy for her. and another,a piano and lappy which her dad bought for her. and my another cousin,her boify bought for her ipad as well. woahhh~ so jealous. im green with envy! Me? dont mention,single life,miserable. lmao!

& why so many people birthday falls on december? bankrupt month for me.grrr..wanna ask dad for money but kinda weird cause its been months since he gave me school money. hahs! finally i feel grown up. ah!! yest went to my uncle office,how come i nv meet a young,handsome rich guy? lmao! kk,i gotta go. bro nagging..

2010-12-02T00:04:00.000+08:00

As much as i want to go to Mnet concert on 4december,i wouldnt stoop so low as to go with you. Im sure we will end up arguing. I know ure gonna read this,i dont give a fuck. All i want now,is for you to stop texting me. You were saying our friendship was in a complex. since when im ure friend? tsk. i dont know why,at times i missed you but just the thoughts of it,grrrr! i hate it ttm ! seriously! k change topic.

Was chatting with friends and they randomly asked me what do i look for in a boyfriend? hahaha! i wish we had the same interest in kpop & bowling ! so we could go to concerts together gather. hahaha. And exchange bowling tips. cheyyy..in my dream i guess. hurhur..

2010-11-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

yest slept ard 2am? cx reach home nearly 11+ midnight? morning woke up ard 9am. shld haf gone for morning lessons instead of rotting on my beautiful bed.heehee. meet yati n bought my filet-0-fish with no sauce ((: the weather today *w0w* i loike. but kinda scare t go home. so waited for Adon to go home together. while waiting for him outside c1,a sudden so-called friend called me(random). just nice when she called me,my guy friend hugged yati n me,i quickly hold another guy fren of mine,hand. so it wont look awkward. lmao. n that guy fren of mine,doesnt want t let go of my hamd! hahahaha..kinda weird eh when ur classmate hugged you. lol. but its ok. single means mingle.

& wtf! my boss is so fcuking handsome! gawdddd!! n he always stand beside me. *heartbeat beating fast* lmao.n when he share those paper with me while briefing n looked at me in th eyes * fainted!* hahahhaa.but i prefer if he were to shut his mouth instead. k i don wanna b mean but he looks better with his mouth shut! ^^

n oh n oh,yest went t watched Harry Porter. im so gonna watch again. cause we missed out th beginning. & thanks B for feeding me dinner so late. now people said that i gained my weight. kns. shld stop eating dinner liao.

2010-11-22T23:49:00.002+08:00

ok peeps,im gonna have a new blog. or formspring perhaps? hahaha. today school,okok larr.. aft sch,went out n ate wendy's.nice nice ! i wanna watch harry potter. but i jus cant find th time. so busy. but idk busy with what ! hahaha. oh man!,wed got work briefing for 30 mins at toa payoh. suck ttm! going there alone cx everyone is busy. thats why at times like this its good t haf a bf. gotta find one,asap. lol. was talking about guys with baby jus now. i realised that my life really suck. of course i can live without guys but its just that im missing smth in my life. cheyyy..enough of all that. im craving for mac breakfast. its been weeks.ohmy~ k i gtg~ watching th latest kdrama. Mary stayed out all night. daebakk! in love with JGS<3

2010-11-19T01:27:00.000+08:00

this blog seems dead ! hahaha. im gonna try my best to update it everyday *crossfingers*
this past few days everything seems to be going fine.feeling so happy onlyy. i just got this mixture of feelings. dont know if its a good feeling or a bad. recently, i kept in touch with a guy.ive known him for years but only recently he has been texting me. And baby dont seems t mind when i told him im msging a guy. k,i don noe if he mind it or not.im gonna assume he doesnt mind it since he said nothing. oh well,gotta meetup with him soon. he got lotsa good pictures t share. teehee. ahh,ill randomly upload 2 photos. was staring at those pictures n i miss...not th times when i was in hosp. haha! i got tournament soon. i know that im nt gonna win this time round. Oh!,wanted t buy fourskin shoe but don haf my size. this is so so so bad ! hate it -.-

Baby,i hope we will last long. im loving this song.~

2010-11-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

HELLO! pheww,quickly went to transfer money to mum bank acc. bankrupt lerr.. tsk.. wahh,i feel so boring suddenly. kay not suddenly,always ! hahaha. its like i got nth to look forward everytime i check my phone. Zzzzz...gotta slp~

2010-10-27T23:49:00.002+08:00

seriously,fuck th mth of october.! bad month for me. early in th morning,i saw what im nt supposed to saw on his body. it just turned me off & i keep my mouth shut! i dont even know what im thinking/doing. Luckily i can control myself. Life is HELL for me,for now atleast.

Since ure happy,i might as well leave! oh right,i left u already. so whythfuck m i still thinking of u? stills missing you n stills hoping for ur text! worse of all,stills think t be with u again ! i better stfu~

~~canyoutellmewhat'sonyourmind?~~

2010-10-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

I guess October is a bad month for me. so many things had happened to me. today incident-don wanna talk abt it. one thing i learnt,is not t eat ! i dn wanna eat anymore! i regret for crying till my face were damn swollen. thanks everyone who tried t consoled me. ill be fine.was searching some webby n saw thru an article.smth abt diet pill...thinking should i tried it?? but theres side effect.

wth,i even though of killing myself. psycho me.is it my fault for being fat?!?! i cant help it that my tears falls everytime i thinks abt it. i bet i wont get any sleep. gonna bothers me big time. starting today,i promise not t eat much. only fruits n veg. admitted t hosp again? i don care. i wanna loose weight. its getting on my nerve.
man! mum keep asked me why is my eyes swollen n i nv touched any food today. went cafe2 today,bought th same food as th girls but didnt touched my rice. jus t satisfied Yati only. i noe she cared. My shoulder are swollen now -.- thanks t th exercise i guess? n i noe im gonna b sick again. i can feel it. my palm are pale/white. gawd,gotta b strong!

where u at,it hurt.

2010-10-07T02:04:00.001+08:00

Holla! hahaha. kay,ive been listening to taeyang-where u at & 2ne1-it hurt. been repeating it.oh,n some of th english covers,damn good.(Y) save to fav in utube. kekeke.

& i love th way u asked me those questions. make me feels that im kinda important in ur life.well,i hope. hahs. you can try to calls me if u dn believe th next time round(:

ive been sleeping almost 6am everyday! cn u believe it? i cant slp..insomnia i guess. borringg..sch,faster reopen. atleast i gt smth t look forward everyday..

Day and Night,High and Low,Where You At.

2010-10-05T19:11:00.001+08:00

im having bad headache,abdominal pain and even feels nauseous.how come? Mr Google stated that im pregnant if im having all this symptoms.kns.! Morning woke up,went to market. Mom wants me to learn how to cook. :| Yesterday,went clarke quay. Had lotsa fun there :D Friday going out for midnight movie.Butbutbut,darla wanna go jb then to supper club.i wanna go also. or maybe some other time.Gotta save money to go oversea.. im thinking,should i go jb or not.. Mom saw my guy friend and tell dad that my boify is a ahbeng.=.= i dont even see which part of him is a ahbeng.more like an uncle. teehee.

ohmy,everyday i dream of his face. why must be him?! n he texted me,but i nv replied him. i don wan history to repeat again !

ohyea,i like this Coach's bag. more like a wristlet pouch. wanna buy but cant )): i wanna go oversea,so must save. can money drop,plsss.-.-

whoopwhoop! my friend is baking me a chocolate cake. i loike !

Boy you look so fine.

2010-09-30T02:01:00.000+08:00

kay,i realised im being sucha bad girl. my fren ask me out n i reject him flat without realising it was his birthday. oh gawd!,i feel so bad. of all people,why me? zzzz.

2010-09-30T01:56:00.000+08:00

just watched personal taste finished! yessa! hahaha. Lee Min Ho,hw cn u kissed her neck?? do u noe what that mean? DESIRE eh!! u totally break my heart. k forget it. i still got my boify. hahaha. not feeling well this past few days and everything doesnt goes my way. what is this. tsk.

2010-09-23T02:18:00.001+08:00

100th days anniversary <3

didnt went out today.feeling so devastated. supposed to meet my friends but ended up in bed. down with flu and nobody at home today. nice weather somemore,fuhh! hahaha. but srsly,im damn hungry now. didnt ate anything th whole day,mum nt home n she didnt cook. so i munch on cookies. errr,i can hear my stomach grumbling. like techno music is being played. hahs ~ & have a bf like don have a bf also. he must be fucking enjoying himself with all his gf's. grrr,for all i care,just wait ! hehs. but i still love u ~~bby~~. happy 100th anniversary tmr.

but do i sounds like im really attach? hmmm. im not .

didnt touch lappy th whole day cx i don wanna get myself addict to korean dramas(which i aly did,heehee). i cant believe i cried while watching personal taste. i know how she felt when her bf treats her like that! guys are seriously a bunch of jerks! useless jerks! no bashing,world peace. heehee..

2010-09-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

my mum can really be sucha pain in th ***,oopss! hahaha. she keeps on nag at me for wearing pants always. I don like t wear skirt so much eh. everyday in school i wore skirt eh. all th dress in my wardrobe,i hid them.kekeke. but oh well,i was forced to bough a dress few days ago. grrr.
went out with Audrey yest n today. n yest,when we both shop at compass point,theres this guy blink his eyes at me,OMG! hahaha. i keep on laughing and audrey keep on looking at th guy. damn cute ok with his spec. hahaha.kk,im blushing aly. Anybodies gt lobang for jobs? its bored t stay home all day/going out with friends. tends to gossips more. hahs !

2010-09-16T01:43:00.000+08:00

I loathe pimples and i hate cramps! im nt in my best mood for th past few days. i dont know why either. Everything doesnt go well for me. i wish i can throw my anger on someone. uhhh! im really really sensitive this past few days. Keep arguing with bby,nv replied his texts n worse of all,i don wan t see his face. But i missed th time we had together. Bby would hold my hand n randomly kissed my hand and forehead. missed those times we tease each other. but,i dont know whats wrong with me. I want t b alone but at th same time,i want someone to be always near me. someone whom i can calls anytime i wants. i feel so lonely. maybe i should get back to my circle of friends?

and YOU,whythfuck are you following all my friends? Do you even knows them? hahs. By doing so,it makes me more frighten to get near you. I guess i did th right things by nt geting near you. troublefree~

and uh,i hate going for my bowling training. i hate seeing that butch face. nb. face like kns. hair so spiky.lizards falls on her hair will die. hahs ! i srsly,detest her. throw bowling ball so slow. envy th ball so much cx she gt no balls? hahahaha. kay.i better shutthfuckup.

im like in th mood to pick up a fight. errhhhh!!!
&& darla cant believe that i went studied alone. when i told her,she gave me those sounds of "Unbelievable". whatt sia,i change for th better okay! hahaha. mayb for awhile only.hahs! and darla wants me t find bf ASAP. so i could stop pestering her.hahaha. anybodies wanna intro good guy bad guy to me? hahaha.

2010-09-13T00:36:00.000+08:00

why i cant memorise my notes? whatttt siiiaaa?!?! some of th questions,i dont even understand. is there any kind souls who willing to teach me and tolerate my stoopid questions? hahs. okay,gotta wake up morning n go macdonald to study.im craving for mcCafe hot chocolate. whoop!

2010-09-11T01:00:00.000+08:00

today,i had a hectic day. damn those heels. lucky i brough slipper along with me. hahaha! n hate those thick make up. im glad i already removed them.

And guess what,can i fuck my boify? he didnt text me th whole day and idk why. don ask me why i didnt text him either. why must i text him n why cant he text me. fuck him fuck him fuck him!! i hate him... Grrr~ i simply dont understand him. dont wanna contact him for few days(which i know,i cant). sigh,see hows it goes. ahhhh!!! i wanna kill him uh. @#$%^&%#$ i feel like scolding someone. ahhhhh!! i wanna kill him i swear. ahhhh! i wanna cry la..grrrrrr!!!!!

2010-09-09T01:42:00.000+08:00

i dont want to take any exam's.can i? stress eh. last min revision. its 1.40am and i cant slp. i don wanna failed. i wanna study hard. ohwell, sat went for midnight movie with bby. Vampires suck (Y). & bby laugh damn loud and it damn hilarious. hahahaha! reached home ard 4+am and ard 9+am bby meet me. went out awhile and he's off t worked.

and hell yeah,it seems that mum&dad is hooked to th fishing game. hehehe. daddy damn power sia. always win but mummy and me always lose. kns. arghhh! okok,i wanna study + texting with baby = make my day ! kekeke.

& whytf r u calling me? dont hold me back cause finally,i can move on. (:

2010-09-03T21:13:00.000+08:00

wahh. login fb and saw lots of bashing about th kpop night. for those buying th $258,they have to start queueing frm 12am. Queue line will close at 930am. i dont see any reasons why are they against th idea of each person can buy 10 ticket max. i think its good right. some people cant overnight. ahhh,forget it. why am i talking about it? hmmm..bowling training was tough today. thanks b for fetching me. (:

2010-08-27T22:19:00.000+08:00

LOL! i cant stop laughing. watch my kdrama jus now. then theres this part where th guy kissed th girl neck with so so so much emotional. then suddenly smth strike my mind. search Google what does each kiss mean. Im crazy right? wth am i doing?!?! LOL! while reading,i keep lol t myself. excited much? but don noe excited for what reason also. imagine my BigBang do this,omo,i faint sia. LOL!

i wonder how's my baby feeling now. is he happy or sad? im not there for him when's he feeling down. i feel so ..... . Any ideas how to make up for what i did? hmmm....should i kiss him on his ear? lmao! see,i cannot stop laughing aly. too excited. aigoo..

2010-08-27T20:35:00.001+08:00

first of all, i don noe why im having mixed feelings. wth is this?

and second of all,i wanna haf my lego ring. heehee..but but but
im lazy to go all the way to Marina Square just to go Lego's shop to buy my Lego's stuffs to make my Lego ring. Why must Lego's be at Marina square? very far lehh..lazy sia wanna go all th way there.

But th thoughts of it,make me smile *BlinkBlink* hahahaha!

& wtf?! th kpop night concert price is $298. thats is what rumours says. nothing has been confirmed. hopes it wont be that ex. arrhhhh~ forget it.

Ft-island latest song,damn NAISE! ( Y ) title: Love Love Love...

2010-08-26T00:39:00.000+08:00

im feeling so excited like 58394123493428!! hahahahahaa! so now,i got to save up my money. cant ask dad to pay for me. if he pay,means i wont get a new phone. so here th deal. im gonna work. u saw it?! WORK! hahahaha.. i will be working for my mom. i will charge her for every house chores she wants me to do. hahahha! sounds great? i wont be going out often too. save money lehhh.. ohya,who wanna go also? th more th merrier. hehehehe. cereal daddy gonna go also.woots! Big Bang leh. can die^^ anybodies needs help with your house chores? hahahaha! i sounds like a despo sia. my mum ask me to go kitchen take water for her,i charge her $1. LMAO! i got a basket of scolding from her. hahahaha.

2010-08-25T18:04:00.004+08:00

this drama really gets me HIGH! i have been shouting,jumping crying,talking

and laughing at myself. I really want to have this type of boify. even in dream,i

don mind. kekeke. when people's make fun of this girl,he just rush toward th

girl n kissed her. omg! He even waited for th girl at th workplace in case she get

drenched in th rain. such a guy,where to find? tell me. only in drama. so wth

am i wishing for guy like this? hahaha! i gone crazy,right?

mum has been asking me t sit still cx i keep laugh out loud or cried like mad girl n even jump on th bed when he kisses her! hahaha.

i don care,i wan t haf this type of boify.
someone whom i can flood his phn with all my text,his fb is filled with only my stuffs,he post twitter only abt me,his status saying im all his and he will call me at night just t said he love me. wakakaka! im going insane.

going fishing with mummy soon. perhaps?

2010-08-25T15:11:00.001+08:00

hmm.. what t post? lets start off with brother. Bro was admitted to cgh yest. he gt drug allergy and his face was swollen. damn hilarious. HAHAHA! whenever he look at me or talk t me,i keep LOL. cannot tahan. don noe why either. And i know he gonna read this. caught him reading my blog and twitter. hahaha!

BABY IF I GOT YOU,I DONT NEED NO PARACHUTE.

2010-08-22T16:11:00.000+08:00

Im so in love with my boify now<3

boify promised not to lie to me anymore.

actually,he never lie to me before.

it was just a misunderstanding.

but whatever it is,im glad you're changing.

im shocked with what you told me yest night.

teehee..

2010-08-20T20:55:00.000+08:00

Went to watch Step Up 3 in 3D. Naise! went with Faiz today. i feel bad for rejecting him yest. so i make time for him today. hahaha. today something hilarious happen to me. srsly,LMAO! i was on th fifth floor heading t th escalator going up t sixth floor. while we both were on th escalator,there's this chinese guy,keep on staring at me. he gt those looks like retarded faces (sry,idk of a better words t explains). he kept on looking at me without blinking his eyes. he even walk down th escalator t stand infront of me and look at me. i was scare uh. Then he shout "you are not malay. you are not indian. your indian muslim!" while he was saying that,i keep nods my head.lol! scare sia. then he continued "i love you. i like this types of pretty face. i love you.i really love you.so pretty.I LOVE YOU~" LOL! th moment he said that,faiz crack up and i bite my fingernail thinking should i laugh or cry? lol! when he was saying ILY,he pout his lips. omfg!,damn cute but nt my types. hahaha! from then on,Faiz keep on teasing me. freaking angry. till nw. hahaha.

i wish mr bee was with me. ): im shocked with what you said yest. if it's really true you missed me,then theres still a chance(: hahaha.

2010-08-20T20:44:00.000+08:00

Before i turn nasty,you better delete th facebook you create using my photo. N stop adding up my friends. http://www.facebook.com/#!/profile.php?id=100000692082160
you think i dont know who did it ah? N i jolly well know you're reading my blog too.knn. last warning i tell you. Just because im good t u,u can do this. there's a limit t my patience.!

2010-08-20T00:36:00.000+08:00

I wanna watch step up 3 in 3d and haunted changi! i wanna watch haunted changi during midnight can? confirm powerr! hahahha.. i wanna step hugging ~~mr bee~~ cn ma? step i scare. lmao! wth with me? crazy thoughts again. hahaha.. ahh well.. i miss ~~mr bee~~..
FML.
kay,gotta move on.

2010-08-12T22:04:00.000+08:00

oka,decide to post suddenly. random. today test was alright. thanks to joe,fy,fuad n jinhao. hahaha.. saw forever21 spree and im so gonna get it. fuckfuckfuck. i cant wait sia.shld i buy aeropostale hoodie or tees? mmmm,too many wanna buy. if mr bee noe abt it,die.

went doctor just now. my sinus act up again. medicine also finished. so went t clinic alone. fml..boring sia. kay,nth t post aly. night!

2010-07-24T02:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday went for my bowling tournament at yishun safra. college west boys were so friendly. always root for me whenever i strike or spare and make jokes always. I was feeling nervous when i was asked to bowl the first. why must captain bowl first eh? nt fair sia. who made this stupid rules? hahaha! didnt expect i won all th ladies category? came in 2nd n 3rd. i could have done better if i was feeling well. why must i be sick at this point of time? damnit.

i wanna go slp.ilovemy people.

daddy,my kimchi dont forget ah ! teehee^^

2010-07-14T01:02:00.000+08:00

I missed ~~0ppa~~ damn much. ahhh ! feeling so sad ):

why must you always be busy eh? we are drifting apart eh,mind you ! hahs.

nevertheless,saranghaeyo<3

~~0t0kaj0??~~

2010-07-12T12:01:00.000+08:00

Freaking bored in class now.. lucky got my kakis to entertain.i hurt my finger early in th morning. damnit sia.

wo0wo0~ spain won ! bet with danny n fy yest. i won! i cant stop smilling((:

danny-porter bag uh..teehee^^

2010-07-05T00:16:00.000+08:00

0ppa,0ppa,0ppa! saranghae<3 teehee^^

kay,been going out with oppa for few days and we watched all types of movies. & he bring me tour th whole singapore. hahaha! im loving it. although we kept on arguing and he kept on teasing me,i still wanna thanks u. u made me smile. at times,i wanna killed u for not texting me when ur busy dry swimming(inside jokes),and at times i wanna bite you when you tickle me and tease me infront of so many people. but thats make you adorable. I rmb yest,u hugged me so tightly at th mrt,i feel good. mmm.. 0ppa asking for my blog link,should i give him? hahaha..

2010-06-30T13:03:00.002+08:00

whoop! ok,im getting ready to go for my class chalet. wake up at 8am,follow mum to market. then ate breakfast at kfc. reach home ard 11. Bathed & get ready. make up and stuff. n blow my hair wavy. hahaha! packing my bag soon n ohno,why did i placed my cap? aite,gtg now.. adios<3

0ppa(:

i hope ur chest is feeling better now. rest well aite. gonna miss u (:

2010-06-30T00:01:00.000+08:00

Werl0~ I got my class chalet tmr. Mum ask me to overnight there. But i dont feel like doing so. I wont be able to watch my korean drama,0h! my lady. teehee^^ . today,nth much. clean my house and cooked for myself bean sprout soup. & oh,thanks for th nougat.. im loving it<3

k,shall update more tmr if i never ton. haha.. ***** texted me. He asked me if i wanna go clubbing tmr night. ahh,shld i? im kind of stress also,so y not aye? but i wanna change myself to be someone better. ......

ps,i wont be replying ur texts as often. i wont bring my charger. haha..

2010-06-22T19:08:00.001+08:00

kay,i don noe if i should go airport to fetch u or nt? im stuck. should i hold on to my promises or just break it?

i didnt go out since last week. what a good girl i am. haha. except for today,meet sonny awhile n back home.
i don feel like going out. & i don feel like posting either. i miss you yet i don noe wat to do. i didnt slp th whole night.damn.

i wanna watch my korean drama aly.taadaa^^

uh fcuk!, hw could nickhun be so damn close to victoria eventhough they got married in we got married? this is unfair! i wanna go k0rea n0w n find him. uh!

2010-06-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

~~Be a lady,act like a man(:~~

im back! teeheehee.. i enjoyed my holiday.
i played flying fox & banana ride. whoop! i dont dare to play since th guys dare me,i had to show my braveness.wakakaka!
Banana ride was awesome! Nabil,Naz,Faiz,god mum & me played. our banana boat was attached to a speed boat. so we sat on th banana boat,somesort like a ballon and went middle of th sea. gawd!,im scared at that time i imagined all sorts of rubbish thinggy. what happen if th sharp bited me and all. LOL!
luckily faiz was beside me all th time tgt with nabil. they-s0-th-power-ttm! always there when im scared. kekeke..

then at night,went pub to play pool. th pub like haunted place sia. no ppl. so th 5 of us,nabil,naz,shafiq,faiz & me played.

then next day,we went live band and disco at don noe what pacific hotel uh. it looked liked a ship. i swear,worst than singapore sia. i wont go again. imagined i go clubbing in singapore and batam tgt with my mum. it felt so weird sia. hahaha! th moment i step th disco with th guys,i asked myself "would baby mind?"
then i rmb that im single. haha. suddenly i gt th responsibility. mmm,did my baby go out while im nt in spore? actually i don mind.cx its nt my problems n i cant seem t trust u either. oopss!
gee..

k back,then my uncle kind of gt angry with some guys. cause they kept looking at me always surrond me on th dancefloor. fcuk sia. we stay for 2 hrs n off t hotel.

n now,my mum and god mum cant stop talking abt th police officer. haha. even faiz talked abt it cx he asked my number and i didnt know abt it. im nt interested in guys,sry.
haha. i just wanna relax and study.thats all.

ahh,i wanna watch 3 brothers. tired. goodnight everyone.

i wished im by urside 24/7,
so i would know everythings
& anythings thats happening
t u ):

2010-06-15T23:53:00.000+08:00

Tmr going oversea. gonna miss DT & my friends.
i sprain my leg today.
fuck sia,pain!
i was shock when you came to my rescue.
thanks((:

yest i had so much fun.
minus th part where th guy asked my number.
hahaha!

dt,lliw ssim uoy

2010-06-12T13:35:00.001+08:00

Darla,sleepover soon aite?

i have been staying at home for a week.
& im freaking bored at the moment.
anyone wanna pei me go out?
we go LAN play audi(:

awwww,I MISS HIM):
haha,who cares,he also don noe my link.
for 1 week,ive been dreaming about him and everytime i dreamt,i cried for him.
I wish he didnt break his promise,we could be a happy couple now.
Anyway,he moved on already. So,wtf am i still lingering on to th past?
crazy me! phewww!
ive always missed him,do he missed me?
im sick right now,does he know?
does he even care and called?
he didnt.):

cereal daddy asked me not to think t much abt it.
Mustafa called on me just to asked how am i feeling.im so touched,guys.
People around me asked me to get a bf so i would forget my past.
easier said than talk. i don wanna made th same mistakes again.
& y must i force myself t find a bf when i still stuck in th past?
i need a miracle,pls^^

seeing you slack with ur friends,made me realised that i should make new friends.
cause all my current friends are either working or busy with their love life. screw!
faiz asked me to slack with him,oh god!,all guys..i dont wan..hahs!
i need a girls group.haha..wassup with me?
should i make new friends to forget my past or just stay th way i am?

Yest night mum almost called ambulance.cx i kept on crying.painful k!
i kept on feeling giddy and vomit. not only that,my stomach hurt like hell.
mum gave me money to go doctor again,but shes nt free to company me. damn..
suppose to meet fahmy today,but i lied t him saying im nt free.poor him.
y cant th guy,i liked,like me?
y th guys i dont liked,love me?
ahhhh!

i wanna go slp..nv slp th whole night.
i wish u would call me & send me to doc.));
talking about it,made me cried.
FML!

2010-06-10T15:17:00.000+08:00

0mg-usher

yest went doc cause i kept on vomitting & nose bleed):
then went playground to play with Irfan.
at night,faiz called and went shop with him.
yest received unexpected call from someone.
hahs! i dont know should i laugh or what?
I saw you with them few days ago and
you denied it? hahs! wth sia.
why bother to lied when we have
no string attached?
I cant figure out human sia.
You called saying someone wanna rembat you,
and you activate me? suck cock uh.
wont waste my fucking time with you.
Lies is all you know.

today school was fun.
im having sam now.
without fail,Cereal daddy gave me milo or honey stars.hehehe..
tq(:
&& thanks for being there to hear my silly problems.

aite,wanna go study now
&& i cant wait to go holiday with you too uh faiz(:

2010-06-07T23:15:00.000+08:00

IGNORANCE IS BLISS.

Why are you being like this? tell me why!
Do you even care about how i feel? Do you?
why cant you be there for me as a friend?
Is it a must to have a r/s?
All i need is my friends to be there for me
& cheer me up when im d0wn.
So all this while your there for me is for a reason.
Your not here to cheer me up as a friend,hoping to get a chance?

hahs! im wrong about you.
thanks eh.

You know i wont get into a r/s real fast.
My priority is to studies.
So im giving you a choice.
Either be there for me as a friend

forget me as your friend.

is it so hard to stay as friends?
i know you have a feeling for me.
but i tried to ~~fake ignorance.~~
cause its too early for me to have a r/s.
I h0pe u understand.

<3

love ya love ya love ya~

2010-06-05T22:26:00.000+08:00

went cp with mama cx suddenly i gt th urge t drink milk tea.teehee. then went ljs t eat.
then theres this group of guys sitting at th corner keep staring at me. i wanna go asked them why they kept staring at me,then mama quickly ask me t go toilet to relax myself. hahas. i don noe why im so hot temper recently. while walking to toilet,those 2 guys follow me. i tot they wanna rembat me sia. haha! skarli he want my number. chey! hahs. i just gave him a sarcastic laught n walk off. am i bad? told hunnie and he laught at me. wth sia. tsk!

stayed home this few days..am i a good girl, hunnie? gee! monday going out with darla<3
plan to go raffles > grab starbuck & slack.
thanks to kiddo darl,im addicted to that place. happy? ur fault la! cb. ooppps! hehehe..

to kiddo darl, thanks for being there for me. malu tau when u see me cried like a small baby. haha.
didnt expect to see me cried kan? cx i always show u guys th strong side of me. hurhur..i just wanna tell u im fine n dont worry abt me.imma strong girl aite.

bbq~

2010-05-30T00:26:00.000+08:00

~~whoop!<3~~ went bbq yest with families.i treat them like my families. actually they are mum friends. went bbq near sengkang yest with 40 peoples. only me n faiz do th bbq-ing. wahh,tired sia. but had lotsa fun cx this faiz always tease me. hahas! while bbq-ing, suddenly rain. then all of us took shelter awhile. while everyone help to clean th place.me n faiz went t shop.thats th only way we can avoid doing th cleaning. hehe. i tot th bbq end aly,suddenly mum beep us n asked us to go over faiz hse n bbq. whoop! so faiz n me purposely walk slowly n play with th raining water.hahs.so reached his hse,we continue our job as chef(ehem!) n he continue teasing me again. hahas..we bbq till 1am.fun. then faiz mum spray me with water host n all of us started bathing outside th house? gler kan3? hahas! here are some pics..wanna see more,fb!

2010-05-25T18:35:00.002+08:00

t0day morning before going to sch,meet my sengkang kakis. They waited for me today cause im late. TQ. wah~ th moment i reached class,kecoh sia. haha.. its supposed to be NWT lesson. but turn out to be fb-ing lesson. nobodies paid attention at all. so login n chat2 with my classmates. ahh! i cant stand them sia. keep call me gila women!hurhur..

just reached home,gonna bath and get ready to go out. damn,im feeling very tired.

Ahh darl,yest night was fun. I laught too hard i guess, till i have abs sia.haha!

I LOVE MY PEOPLE <3

im feeling nervous whenever your ar0und me.

2010-05-23T12:38:00.003+08:00

TELL ME GOODBYE

Just deleted all my previous posts.

i feel like im a noob. Dont know what to post.gee..

Let me do some linking & im done for th day.

iLoveMyPe0ple.